Design Your Beautiful Life Coaching
|Posted on March 16, 2017 at 10:45 AM|
It’s amazing that even after 13 years there are still times that one glance at his photo triggers butterflies. Moments when the memory of his presence returns in a wave that floods over me. I can’t help but smile as I feel his energy. Vividly remembering how it felt to be in the same room with him, to have him give me the biggest hug and smile that smile that made every worry melt away. I am beyond thankful for the thirteen years we had together. For the friendship, love and support he gave me. How he always made me feel like the most important person in the world. I loved being goofy with him, supporting his dreams and doing anything I could to make his days brighter. I’ve been asked if I would do it all again knowing now that he’d be called home so early in life. If I’d spare myself the heartache. The truth is I would jump back in without a second thought. We shared something people search their entire lives to find. We brought four wonderful children into this world. Living with him, even if shorter than I would have liked, brought a value and a fullness to this life I could never have imagined. In his absence he has left a blueprint for happiness that I have learned to apply in my chapter 2. I remarried nine years ago and even added two more children to the family. I know that my late husband has always been there, with each step I have made, cheering me on from the other side. He was always my biggest fan and always wanted nothing more than my happiness. I am blessed to have found my husband now and am so thankful to have him in my life. I fully love him as I have fully loved my late husband for many years. There is no comparison or competition, each is unique and wonderful. Sometimes this concept is hard for others to grasp. To those who wonder how a widow can love both husbands I would ask , would you not love your second child as much as your first? Would not all of your children be exceptional and loved in their own right? Our capacity to love in this life is amazing, it has no limits or boundaries and knows nothing of death, it just is. Love is an infinite and beautiful gift that we get to share with one another, heart to heart, soul to soul eternally.
Categories: A Journey Through Grief